There's nothing worth anymore...

My last post for this blog

2010-07-18T23:47:00.002+08:00

This will be my last post for this blog.
whereby i'm moving my blog le.
will be changing this template to the relink...
but my blog link is:

190210-youhealedmyheartcompletelyx3.bs

i noe very long, but relink k?
ty^^

ending my post le, goodnight everyone:]

to "him":
though u told me that u're ok wif i'm not loving u anymore, but i still feels that u're glad:]
i noe u dun mind how i feel, but nvm:]
still goodnight, and this is the last time i will be concerning about u at blog, so pla do take care and jy for ur paper.
bye:]

Dun really hav alot of things happened during hols=X

2010-07-04T14:25:00.002+08:00

Holidays ended last week, and i've been damn tired for one week le=X
dun noe why, juz feel damn tired=X
but nvm, i got enough slp le, hahas^^
but i forgotten to bring my physics tb home~~~
so it means that i'm not able to do my homework le=X
lols, anw, i found out tat someone hav been using my facebook account to do things...
and that someone is my "son" ^^
which is remus^^"
i dun noe when i gave him my account password...
cause i thought i only gave it to three person, err..
in order to help me to sth^^"

i hav improve by a little little bit, wont say is on wat thing but i still did improved:]
by a little bit only la...
still got a long way to go^^
tmr, week starts again,and i will be tired again=X
lol

smiling to myself?
i will try, and i will try to remember de, k? :]
thanx anw:]

k, i'm ending my post le, jy for tmr bah^^
jyjy!!! ^-^

to "him":
i dun noe tmr if u got go anot, and i finds tat u're quite close to her, dun noe if u noe who is tat her anot, and i dun hav the rights to ask u or do anything about it, juz... take good care of urself and must jy for the paper:]
not keep reminding u, but... ^^"
but still dun overtired urself hor, bye:]

Emo-ing sucks!

2010-06-07T13:19:00.002+08:00

Emo emo and emo:(
cant be happy and cheered up, i dun noe why.
but i juz cant...
haizz...
oh ya, dad finally came home, and one thing tat is very strange is tat his attitude is really different, also he bought lots of choc home^^
wah...
crazy over choc^^
right!
ltr after this post i shall go hav some choc le hee^^
but someone tell me how can i stop emo-ing leh.... T-T
sad thing=X
wat thing is bothering me leh...
today seems to be a bad day to me eh?
cause it's like...
i spilled the laksa soup onto the floor, den i dropped the spoon onto the floor and my shirt kena the soup and i'm wearing white colour shirt!!!!
haizz...
days at home really sucks...
i'm stucked at home.....
ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!
damn it damn it damn it!!!=.=
wah~~~!
wat can i do leh, bored...
lol
bored?
wat can be done leh?
lols
haizz...
i'm so bored at home, homework?
got 7 more assignments...
haizz...
can do la, maybe ltr on bah, need graph paper and foolscap T-T
but i dun hav=X
but try to ask from bro^^
i find tat ppl really change..
how can one person forever be him/herself leh??
sobT-T
nvm, gotta end le, bye bye. :(

to "him": haizz... sadden, dun noe for wat, but i guess not because of ur stuff bah=X
cheer up, will try if i can=X though u didnt asked me to.

Almost slipped... =l

2010-06-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

I almost slipped when i'm walking into the toilet=X
lol, the floor is so slippery lo=X
and today, i kena gastric pain again=X
damn pain, and i hav finished the med tat i've bought juz a few days ago:(
but nvm, glad tat now it's not pain at all^^
also, dad has not been home for three days le, neither he called my phone:/
nvm, dun call den dun call lo:(
haizz..
now, should i say tat everything is like back to normal le?
i dun noe, maybe everything, except for my family:(
i thought i didnt mind le, but who noes?
everything and everyone around me is changing including me...
but can i choose to rewind things back to last year?
last year 28th Sept.
lol, wat am i saying?
lols, rubbish^^
ah~~~~!
seems like i'm not really in mood to post now eh?
guess so?
lol, talking to myself again, seems to be fun eh?
i found tat wat i'm saying now is kind of strange and lame eh?
not really feeling good now, not as in i'm sick or wat, it's juz tat my mood, is nt really good, but it will be really good in juz a while, no other reason except for i'm strange, lols
juz dun mind about it and things will get better?
lols
noe wat? ytd i cant slp though i'm really tired, after 4 den i really slept...
den, my best bro in the world go blast the music in his room at the time of 8 am-.-
somemore ytd sis complained of cold cause she's sick, so mum off the air-con and made me feel so warm in the morningT-T
sad:(
haizz...
nvm, not enough slp, den ltr get enough slp jiu ok le^^
juz hope tat mum will on the air-con today=X
gee^^ today i cooked for them again^^
and out of the 5 dishes including the soup, 4 of them contains egg^^
hahas, i noe egg is not really good for health, but no choice, house got nth to eat mah^^"
gee^^
god, gonna end this post le, advanced goodnight everyone^^

~~to him: it has been three to four days tat i didnt saw u online, how hav u been? fine right? i hope so too:] advanced goodnight to u too:] sleep early and well too:]~~

Gee^^

2010-06-02T23:39:00.002+08:00

Today woke up at 12 plus or 1 plus i think? o.O
den shower, finding things to eat, jiu start to prepare things for dinner le^^
and i cook for them for today^^
it was fun, love it hahas
but was damn tiring too=X
after it was all done, the time is about 7 le i think
den straight away go shower( cause too sweaty:()
den jiu eat, chat, wash and organize photos:]
was kind of in a good mood today^^
but i really wanna to go genting this year
cause it's really cool there, and i miss the things tat i can play at there^^
err... though it's bit childish for me wanting to go genting juz to play, but i juz wish i tat i can go there mah^^"

but i guess wt i really wanted the most is tat parents can be fine in their relationship soon=X
dun noe they hav been like this for how long le, but i juz hope tat they can be as good as last time again and as a family, we will go out tgt again^^
i really miss the times tat we went out tgt as a family and there is no fight or arguments at all=X
haizz...
lols
nth to sigh about de, isnt it?
i should hav got used to it, cause it hav been so long le, but why juz i cant?
not all guys are like my dad de right?
to be honest, i dun even noe how many days i didnt see him le...
didnt even came home last night, even if he did came home, the time would be 4 or 5am, den in the morning jiu go out very early..
den in this way, why come home?
dad, is this a hotel to u? u came back because it's free?
i dun think tat we need this lo, if u really dun love mum le, wan to hav another family, pls, go ahead, but i juz dun get it, why mum juz cant let u go, juz because she noe she will hav a financial problems when u leaves, and because of this, she tolerate ur abuse towards her, does she even hav to tolerate this?
pls dad, i dun think so, pls be fair to mum and stop making empty promises cause it's hurt! somemore, when tat day u wan to throw the remote at me, did u even care about me?
u've changed, alot, u're not like this before, why hav u changed? u're making me scared of u, dun wanna face u, even hate u for making our lives so miserable, and because of u, i wanna prove to other ppl tat women does not hav to rely on men cause wat men can do, women also can.
but i'm kind of tired, i still wan to prove it, but now, i think, i cant..
for financial stuff, i still believe i can, i will try my very best tat u're wrong about mum! daddy, can u juz pls come back? T-T

gosh...
today i hav written alot of things eh?
but no choice, who asked me to suddenly think of this?
i dun noe, and maybe, frm the things tat i hav said juz now, will annoyed some or alot of guys bah... i'm sry... tats all i can say.

~~to "him": i'm trying, still trying, but i guess, i will succeed cause i'm changing le, i hope tat in future, u're not a guy like my dad:] goodnight:]~~

Exams period is tiring:(

2010-05-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

I'm stressed!!! :(
sometimes will nervous for dun noe wat reasons, like suddenly became...
very unstable?
haizz..
next week onwards will hav papers all the way le...
den now dun noe which mosquito is so not scared of dying to keep pestering me>:(
if i really failed my english, i hav to pass all subjects sia.
if not gonna retained:(
but not due to SA1 rite?
but SA2, so i still got time rite?
but when everytime i make up my mind to study hard, i will be damn tired and my damn memory also, keep forgeting stuff=X
and the weather... is so unbearable? :(

i dun hav self-confident?
is got reasons behind them de...
but i dun noe how to write them out?
actually i think is because i keep failing?
and my atttudes...
sucks...
haizz...
bro asking me to off com le:(
only on com for one hour, jiu must off le, didnt even hav the chance to finish wat i wanna say=X
suan le:]
goodnight everyone, who bother to view my blog:]
good luck for all ur upcoming paper, but not "him" ^^
hahas, and still got 1496 more mins to xiao star b'day le^^
but still, goodnight:]

~~count down 56 days to July, Jy:]~~

Blog after 30 - 19 = 11 days

2010-05-01T02:11:00.002+08:00

To be honest, i dun noe i should post wat leh... =X
and i hate the weather these days:(
cant it rain more?
so warm:(
currently using mei com to blog:]
exams is coming~~~~~
help~~~ (SOS)
hahas
really la, kind of need help, maybe next week onwards will find teachers very often bah=X
tired, and rushing through:(
but give myself a break^^
which is at the middle of the night:]
today keep kena blame sia(since i reached home?)
and tats when i have even enter the gate==
den mum came out to be say wat it's my fault tat my dad and mum quarrel=X
wat sia?
though i noe it's my fault to went home late and made them worried la.
but hor, they quarrel is my fault, dad didnt come home also my fault?
really starting to wonder whether my surname is lai anot=X
always kena blame==
but it's really my fault at times=X ( and i got admit hor^^)
*warm~*
how i wish i can ____ ___ __ _____ now=X
too warm le mah:(
gtg le
mum scolding=="
bye and goodnight:]

~~no comment, just get enough sleep? and dun be late so often? TC:]~~

Blog is updated^^

2010-04-19T04:32:00.002+08:00

I noe its crazy to blog at this time, but no choice cause I hav a crazy brother too><
haizz.
dun noe wat happened these few days=X
but I noe I had fun^^
and on Thursday, I got a little gu Yi one, sry·_·
cause curious, so also go join in lo^^"
I think u mind bah, but its nice:]
just tat...
u still need to smile? ^^
one big smile when u see this^^
and use ur favorite emoticon xD
^^
and ytd I also had a haircut
it was like....
T.T
I hate tat guy who cut my hair!
cut till my fringe so short:(
so I just...
change it to..
bangs!
kind of ugly on me, so dun really think tat I will let it down today^^"
will guai guai de pin them up
hahas^^

I dun noe why, I think many ppl is a silent reader sia, cause they dun tag ppl, including me! hahas
being random (can blame on sis?hahas)
k la gtg le, if not, I can sit outside general office for my detention leT.T
bye see u all in sch, including, u:]

I noe I can't be like this, I also noe tat one day I hav to make my decision, but... for now I really can't, sry for being so... dun noe how to say... =X
I'm sry, to end my post so selfish de xing wei... hope u're not late today... bye and see u in sch:)

~~shouldn't hav said all this but I did...~~

Posting time! ^^

2010-04-14T20:42:00.002+08:00

Hahs, seems to be abnormal today eh?
anw, since when i'm normal?
lol
hmm...
seems like only few ppl noe i hav alr updated my blog bah.
ytd didnt update it cause i reached home at 9 10
so...
didnt online lo
and didnt update too.
cause too tired le, will like damn sleepy den dun noe wat i'm posting. =X
juz chatted wif "him", but "he" gtg, so bye bye lo:]
wait...
is income on right? or is expenses on right le?
thought juz now i still remember?? =X
haizz...
nvr successfully remember things for long=X
hmm...
again, for today was fine!! ^^
cause nth happen?
but ytd did.
during choir, adrian poon anyhow say tat i keep leaning on the wall.
when i alr didnt lean behind when he told me nt to at the first time!
damn him. >:(
suan le, dun care him liao.
den today silent reading dun noe looking at which article=X
and during pe was... no comment? but kinda fun:]
ran wif nina and sis:]
somemore, still hav chewing gums in my mouth somemore^^
and...
we cheat!
but still, the timing is 17.52 for me
den dun noe is nina or sis de is 17.50 and another is 17.51
so i'm still the last among three of us=X
not sporty mah, no choice^^"
den after pe, went to toilet, today i dun noe why, go wash my hair, clean myself till like no sweat like tat=X
but sis, i still think tat on next wed, i will shower during recess.
cause i cant stand the sweat on me=X
physics, tried to do the test on dynamics, guess i didnt really did well
eng and maths, no comment, cause still ok:]

tmr got choir rehearsal sia, and zu er dun wan to go, but maybe she will still be going:]
and i haven memorized the songs yet=X
if i'm nt performing, den my fate lo=X
it's ok anyway:]
cause...
reason is confidential, hahas
k la, going for dinner le, or else...
mum will come and nag at me again le=X
so goodnight everyone:]

thanx for juz now, and glad tat u wont, sleep earlier tonight bah, jy for preparing for n levels, err... and i will try my very very best to remember balance sheet etc. de^^ goodnight, and the three words too. bye

Kind of a bad day for me:(

2010-04-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

Actually today was kind of ok in the day, but juz now when i'm on facebook, things happened there=X
again, for the third time, my future reading doesnt seems to be very good...
today de, i dun noe why, juz happened to hav a wat hurt de...
made me think of some kind of things...
which dun really feel good...
it was still ok, until...
i sees some pics, those pics, make me feels like i wanna cry...
i dun noe why!
haizz...
slept for only 2hrs ytd.
den surprisingly, i can actually last till chemistry lesson, which is after recess de.
got to thanks wen wen and jia hong for making me not to fall asleep:]
and again wen wen, buddy and ben? for facebook just now:]
but really, i'm down.
tat face...
is still in my mind right now...
i hate it.
but wat can i do?
it is none of my business
and i hav no rights
but the thing tat gets hurt, is my heart.
i'm sry for being so selfish, maybe i only noe how to think of myself.
though i noe it's wrong.
thanks to "him" too:]
made me improve on my typing skill:]
though i admit tat i still type kind of slow now=X
but i'm still trying to improve.
hopes tat ur hand didnt really got hurt.
but it's ok, i noe it will be fine for u.
u're doing well, bt wat about me?
am i doing too?
i dun noe.
i dun even noe wat i really want exactly in life.
i'm useless, right?
i believe for even a simply thing, i can even get it done!
i dun noe wat thing i'm refering to, but i noe, i am refering to sth.
i hate it!!!
but i dun noe wat i hate..
maybe is this kind of feelings?
i hate to hav this kind of feelings...
i'm not alone, but why i kind of think tat i am alone.
feeling low bah...:(
feelings?
can i choose nt to feel anything?
haizz...
suan, gonna end here for today le.
hope everything will get better tmr.
goodnight, sweetdreams too.

maybe things will forever be the same, regardless whether the decison is made or not, cause for sth, it is meant to be, get well soon, for ur hand de.. goodnight for u too:] a smile tat is fake till i dun think i can even recognize it...

so late le=X

2010-04-12T00:35:00.002+08:00

Tmr got sch, and I haven sleep yet=X
and I haven even brought the black colour hair band yet><
hate mdm ow...=X
but dun think tat I can really hate her hor?
cause its like still my fault not o follow sch rules=X
and I agree tat I really had changed a lot since sec one and two=X
but I dun noe wat causes me to change, or maybe I noe...
but... I dun think tat I'm willing to say it out
tat reason made me unable to focus on my studies.
for... 3 months le bah...
guess tat is the reason why my grade fell so much...=X
and I think... I still need bit time to recover from it bah...
but its ok:]
I guess?
haizz...
and since I'm tired, I dun think I can post too much, if not there will be lots of nonsense de^^"
so will end my post here bah...
(can sleep earlier also^^)

goodnight le, hope u hav already sleep le, take a really good care of urself, when in rain, please walk faster, dun run o, or else later u fall down=X dun force urself too hard on studies, give urself a break k? sweet dreams and goodnight

Today was still fine

2010-04-10T22:50:00.011+08:00

Nothing seems to be really bad today.
which is good:]
woke up at 11 48am today, den very guai de go shower.
err... had breakfast den washed my sch shoes
so nan de, i seldom will wash sch shoes on my own record de, but today i did^^
after tat i studied physics^^
now kind of a bit ok wif Dynamics le:]
but still got few chaps to study also+_+
changed a new blogskin, is it nice?
though i noe it's bit too ahem, but..
i lazy to keep finding le^^"
so juz used this lo=X
den juz now went to see my old post, seems to be very long sia.
i last time post so long de ar?
haizz...
i'm kind of tired now, just now during dinner i'm kind of "hot"
cause someone smoked(and it smoke juz directly blown towards my face!)
make me feel like wanna splash my drink onto tat cigrette>:(
glad tat "he" quit le^^
and hope "he" wont again:]
but even if he really does, i dun think i really mind(biased^^)

wat should i post....
i'm not really sure...
but i noe during dinner, i keep scolding bastard=X
not my fault, is tat i kind of really..
sensitive to smoke... sry~
haizz...
think i gonna end now le bah, gotta do sth for blog again^^
cause tat one, got very long time didnt update le=X
so gonna update it now, bye:]
goodnight too^^

~~i noe i'm not confused bout my feelings any longer, but i just cant make the decision~~

Gastrict for the entire day:(

2010-04-10T00:42:00.002+08:00

Was so tired today and kind of pissed off after sch:(
seems like today is not really a good day for me eh?
haizz...
morning, dun noe why yu hui suddenly run during hl, but me, sister and nina just followed
den stop, run, stop, run de, but we still ran back to sch, was sweating Damn much at tat point of time lols
poa lesson, dun really hav mood, cause my worksheets is at yu hui there:(
Chinese lesson, kena scolded as a class by chi hod, wasted 15 mins of time when we can finish going through the worksheet wif tat 15mins! ><
recess, feel kind of great, but I think I won't eat tat mee siam again, make me feel so uncomfortable for the whole day><
maths, was great, cause learned sth new^^
but when I wan to continue learning, they say tmr=X
but nvm, I kind of continued le^^
after at jiu went to yg le bah?
am I right?
lol

haizz...
today raja shoot a lot of things about me, make me cried:(
lots of thing just dun happen the way tat u want it to be:(
sad things is much more den happy stuff:(
den today 10 pm den we left my aunt house!
which means tat I reached home at 11 30><
hate my mum sia, falling asleep and having gastrict pain at tat point of time, but she dun care at all! :(
den like keep saying things like wat teachers comments of me to everyone><

haizz... just kind of dun really hav a fun day today, signed a kns agreement at vp room:(
suan, post gonna end le.
goodnight, sleep well..

u're late for healthy lifestyle today, had fun and will eat mee siam its because u're there=X stunned when I saw u again when I'm wif mum, wanted to call ur name, but the voice just dun come out of my mouth, if I really call out ur name, would u turn ur head back and look at me?

Tired:'(

2010-04-08T21:51:00.002+08:00

Realised tat I didnt post for a really long time le...
but going to post now le hahas
dun noe why I'm just really tired these few days=X
I think I always tends to sleep in class during every first period eh? lol
den always kena asked by ms fu=X
including today^^"
for today everything was quite fine bah...
but I lost my novel!
losing the novel is not really a big deal, but...
losing the bookmarks is a big deal!
cause there is no copy of the bookmarks... T.T
sob I lost both of the bookmarks...
was sad bout it... cause its really kind of important to me...
I can't draw the same thing out again...
even if I can, its not perfect anymore..
though.. my drawing sucks=X
the last time I post is on... 28 Feb, den today is 8 Apr, wow, about two months le eh?
den... I known "him" for... 6 months and 11 days le:]
and for "him", I believe tat he is fine right?
hope "he" won't overslept again tmr le, and skip chi class, lols
take care uh!
16 years old le, must noe how to take care of urself le, if not later...
later...
later wat uh? wat I'm going to say dun match sia, lols
u won't mind I leave it like this hor?
and, at here, wish u a happy belated birthday, I noe damn long ago le, but I still wan to wish it here:]
bit ren xing, but I really want to la~~~
and hor...
for tat monkey, I won't take it back, ever.
cause it is only meant to be for u.

hmm...seems like I got to sleep le, hope u also sleep le:]
looking forward to tmr dance:] <3
I love Friday sia...
but... for tmr, I dun noe if I should like it anot=X
hope tat mdm ow and ms fu won't complain too much bout me lo=X
k la, goodnight for those who will read this post:]
~~I'm aching all over, cant laugh also, cause of sit up=X but even for tat, can I say, I miss u? and I hope to see u tmr:] jy for ur napfa:]~~

Been lazy to post?

2010-02-28T12:53:00.002+08:00

Was kind of lazy these few days...
and dun really hav the mood also
reason for this only sis noe
so still gonna to keep it a secret
about tat promise u made to me...
I think its ok le
and u noe which one mah?
its ok if u still dun noe
cause again only sis noe why

tmr will be having maths paper le...
and I still dun noe how to draw a number line the linear inequalities?
haizz...
till today
I'm still feeling bit confused
sis asked me not to mind about it anymore
but how I'm suppose to make it?
am I being too selfish?
I dun noe...
I dun noe how to say it out either...

now my mind is getting more and more confuse....
should I just forget all of them?
I can't
it will be too selfish of me
and I dun noe how too...

...
~~u can always change my feelings by just a msg...~~

I dun noe wat I'm trying to say
but I guess maybe sis will noe bah...
haizz...
abit like no expression de hor?
=X
dun noe must hav wat kind of expression

so...
gonna end my post for today?
let us make a deal wif each other and will explain to u when u noe why k?
my left eye is like crying
but not my right eye?
o.O

haizz....
probably will be back to post tmr bah...
dun wan to run away from problems
but I dun noe how...

but still bye
and I...
haizz...
suan le...
bye...

Damn tired!

2010-02-17T21:21:00.002+08:00

Today went to sch wif a tired feeling...
at first went to seven eleven to buy sweet and hair band de( cause mine is lost:( )
den found out tat I didn't bring enough money for today=X
so I only bought sweet at seven eleven
den walked to sch me kena caught by miss pin due to my attire problems ^^"
so no choice, have to buy hair band in bookshop lo...
den unfold skirt...
den went to bargain wif miss pin regarding my fringe...
but still kena caught by mdm rekha again=X
but in the end still ok la...
just tat I'm still very very tired...
after silent reading den got Pe le...
frisbee was quite fun de...
but zhejia tat group dun seems to be very happy wor...
but... we still lost to their group=X
its ok as we did have fun right?
and physics lesson was sucks...
cause Damn boring...
and I saw Patrick falling asleep in Madeline class sia! ^^
bit fun but we made her really angry wif us le...
den during Chinese lesson me, sister and nina slacked tgt:]
and teacher keep looking at us=X
and during English lesson, i dun really dare to let mdm ow see me cause of my attire again... =X
den during maths lesson, I dun really noe wat have I learnt=X

during... recess.
I saw "him" and "his" friends taking lift, but did they kena caught by mdm rekha?
cause saw rekha talking to ravin if I'm not wrong.
and before "he" went into the lift, nina called "him" and said hi to "him" =X
sobT.T
but its ok la...
dun noe wat "he" is doing now
cause "he" didn't online now?
must be tired le bah?
after sch and cca(though not sure if u did went for the training)
sleep earlier bah...
and tmr can sleep till quite late le^^

k, got to end le, but I'm not going to bed first, cause I haven had my dinner yet! :(
lols really got to end le.

and as usual, i still miss u
bye and goodnight:]

Cold?

2010-02-16T11:53:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i really hate the air-con in my room, cause it can be so freeking coldΣ+_+Σ
but I guess it will ok soon la, hor?

lols like ytd sia^^
reason for it is secret:]
and cause of the reason I dun noe sleeps at wat time, but not too late, after u sleep bah...
and I'm sry tat I didnt reply u cause my mum dun allow me to use phone, so I'm sry...
cold cold freezing cold! =X

and sister is still sleeping^^
so got peace hahas^^
but ytd she betray me sia, and the reason for it is. cannot say lies==
I dun believe she didnt tell lie before lo:(
three days...
mum say within three day she will surely have the chance to take my phone away de...
lols I dun believe she can find the chance lo
lols

I dun noe if he woke up le mah...
lols though I slept at dun noe wat time ytd, and wake up at.... about 11 today?
I'm still feeling so so so tired!
lols
tmr school reopen le...
and my homework... still haven touch them yet^^"
and sister de done finished le bah?
urs? done le mah?
wait. if u haven wake up den how u do?
lols not sure wat I'm saying le, lols

shocked! when I lift my head up, suddenly saw my sis, xia dao...=X
great I'm still cold till...!
but forget it la...

anyway, thanx! ^^
u should noe why de, or no? =X
lols remus ask me to go his house bai nian today.
how can i go when I can't even go out alone except during school day?
so remus, I'm sry lo....

haizz got to start wif my homework le...
so... bye and still tat line...
bye:]

I miss u

Tired!

2010-02-15T11:07:00.003+08:00

Lols so i'm not the latest to sleep eh? lols
not tired when u wake up uh?
lols and i'm being called for alot of times ytd sia!
err... also during new year eve? lols
so far i hav already misplaced one red packet le...
seems tat every year i will lose one de uh? >_<"
sadT.T
but its ok, still hav next year de^^
ytd i'm really so tired tat i straight away went to bed when i reach home>_<"
lols den u leh? still slept at so late ytd?
if really, den i say tat u're really pro le lols cause u're not tired lols
not like me, got so tired in just one day lols
wah, i now very hungry siaT.T
and bro haven wake up yet!! >.<
damn hungry...T.T

lols just now grandma called, den i went to ans the phone despite sis told me tat she will be answering, den she was like slapping my leg when i'm on phone, so fun^^
able to see how she look like when she lost to me, really its fun^^
but she is now angry for dun noe why, but definitely not because of me hor, i'm so innocent and bhb-.-"
lols
eee... i dun wan to tie her hair sia...
everytime this dun wan, tat dun wan de(when she didnt tell me wat she wan-.-)
dun care about her le, lols

and shall end soon le bah,
so lastly, miss u and wish all the best for u and...(hope u noe... is who) :]
bye for today:]

Happy valetines day!

2010-02-14T03:54:00.002+08:00

Not gonna to say tat today is a Chinese new year, cause its was like bit old, so gonna to wish everyone a happy valentine!
Hope u all can have fun tmr, of course especially "him" and sis, cause sis is now at Malaysia!
and although "he" is in Singapore, but still hope tat "he" will hav fun throughout these few days:]
actually no need to thanx me de, should be me thanking u for not rejecting the presents, and hope u like them:]
during this time all of u is asleep le right but i'm not^^
den tmr will be a pig zombie when its in the morning(tats wat justin said=X)
though i dun really agree wif jus and remus tat i'm a pig, i still hav to admit it:(
haizz... 4 sth le... so late le...
den like today hav to break promise again le.
k, later i will try to download songs till crazy, or tmr i might be really bored=X
great sia, today quarreled wif mum and got cry for awhile, cause i dun noe tat my mum will think tat i'm so bad and everything i hav done is wrong, not like bro, wat he had done is all right, i really hate it sia..
gosh, seems tat i really hates quite a few things eh? lols
but now although its random, but still goodnight cause i cant hang out le
so... goodnight^^"

Sry~

2010-01-24T14:14:00.015+08:00

Ytd said sth tat i shouldnt hav=X
haizz...
hope "u" dun mind eh?
and dun be angry wif me plea~
woke up in the afternoon like about 30mins ago?
lols, later will be going out=.="
slept for 9 hrs le, and i'm still feeling tired?
tmr lesson...
my table will be vandalised^^
aiya, but pencil only:]
ytd chat wif him, den dun noe why, getting more and more emo, so juz said sth=X
i'm sry, really am sry...
maybe tat time, i'm bit tired?
dun mind bout tat la, see finish le den must forget them and rememer sth tat is useful, not this kind of things
and really, dun misunderstand me, k?
so tmr are u going to come wif us or?
since sis agree, and i'm ok wif it too:]
so mind nth bout it, err...
if u say u dun wanna come tmr is because of wat i hav said, den next time i really really wont allow u to see le...
thanx for not lying to me ytd:]
for her, hope tat when u're sure of ur feelings, cherish her
(provided if she accept u)
err... i dun mean tat she wont accept u, if u really got her heart wif u, treasure her...
lols, ytd still say tat i wont be so generous, now wat i'm doing?
lols
i'm alright, sis, u also will be ok right?
everything will be back to wat it used to be
juz only some wound, wont heal so soon
ask andy to buy beers?
he agree uh?
if he agree, i dun mind de
err...
if u're coming, would u mind?
shiok, ytd night eat 2 bowls of rice
if everyday like tat, den end of the year i will be overweight le, lols
please dun misunderstand me...
still mind bout this sia=X
Mr, say one it's ok or nvm leh...
or i will feel bad till dun noe when de sia, pls?
btw, u're still studying?
wait, i got some english assignment wanna to ask u, can?
k, guess today shall end here le, though i still feel like posting? =X

~~心，依然有些痛。。。是伤口未复原吧？sry, but i love you~~

Post post post!!!

2010-01-23T18:53:00.002+08:00

Ytd slept at 3 sth about 4am?
den today wake up about dun noe wat time=X
actually dun really plan to sleep so early ytd de...
but as the com sibei lag, so i go sleep lo^^"
i'm sick le~~~
luckily only flu, no fever^^
sister, u ok le mah?
and yuhui also, ok already?
err...
of course, and "him" also...
been studying since 8 uh?
not tired?
very hardworking...
must jia you o!!!
very tired today...
homwork are done except for physics, cause didnt listen to wat madeline said, and lazy to see textbook, soooo^^
kb, i dun really noe wat to post sia~
having bit sorethroat because of flu?
damn it damn it!
but like tat also good la, hor?
if this can last til...
uh... tues, den dun need to sing during choir le^^
hmm...
jolly shandy...
where is it now??
i wanna to drink it sia, if i'm not under 18, den i dun hav to drink it le, juz drink beer den can le hor?
^^
dun noe i post for how long le..
think...
got 20 mins?
haven shower, haven really done anything yet...
hmm...
wat i'm talking about?
craping...
tired tired tired!!!
maybe later will be looking for new blogskins, cause juz now den i notice tat...
this blogskin is damn plain=X
after next week, den one month is gone le, juz like this!
oh my, and i hav done nth in this one month??
watever, lol
gtg now, seeing u guys next week eh?
oh yes!
28th of Jan is learning journey, hope it wont be boring?
of course, there's another thing on 28th...
haizz..
gone now?
anw, to "him":
thanx for teaching me maths on...
thursday?
tyvm^^ although... i still dun noe how to do=X

sumimasen, daisuki desu

Will post in chinese today

2010-01-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

当我认为一切都是新的开始时，才发现，原来一切的一切，都只是我在自欺欺人罢了。。。
十月二号，是结束一段感情的日子，也是一个让人心碎的日子，碎掉的心，无法再是完美的。。。
从来并没有后悔结束那一段感情，也没后悔喜欢上他，甚至，还能称上是种爱。
爱上他，是一种苦，但这种苦，我渐渐地爱上它，也不认为它是苦的，因为他值得我去爱吗？
我不知道，心碎了，泪干了，一切也都要到终点了。。。
对于他的爱，我希望不会有任何的终点存在，因为爱，所以我会坚持等待，不期盼那天他会对我有任何的感觉，只希望我还能这样的喜欢着他。。。
第一次感觉到那种令人脸红心跳的爱情，竟然会是一个让我哭了好几个小时的爱情。。。
两年了吧，这两年，并没有和任何一个男生告白过，因为都没有这种感觉吧。。。
虽然在这两年里，交过三个男朋友，不能说没有一个是我真的喜欢过的，但，为什么，每次当我很喜欢那个人时，我都会受伤，爱情，真得很会捉弄人心。。。
今天是三姐妹一起伤心，难过，加心碎的一天。只差，是不同的时间。。。
哭了，好久。。。好久，也好累，但我却不想睡，也没心情，很奇怪厚？
睡觉也要靠心情的，自言自语的我，又回来了。。。
也不知道现在在写什么，头好痛，心也好痛,能不能什么感觉都没有？
如果现在，我没有了感觉，就不会懂什么是心痛，也不会懂为什么要哭。。。
有人说，世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死，是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。。。
我相信你是知道的，只是因为，在你心里的人，并不是我，所以，才会这样的吧?

“我坚持的都值得坚持吗我所相信的就是真的吗如果我敢追求我就敢拥有吗而如果都算了不要呢
或许吧或许我永远都不会遇见他或许吧或许我太天真了吧属于我的昨天之前的结局我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬我迷信我的迷信属于我们点点滴滴的伤心我们要各自忘记属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们在一起努力我们还要努力属于风的那就去飞翔吧属于海洋的那就去汹涌吧属于我们的爱
该来的就来吧为什么不敢呢不要呢是他吧命中早就注定了的那个他是他吧他原来就在这里啊”

知道这是什么歌名吗？我觉得还蛮相似的，蛮而已哦！
你不会介意吧？
不知道你还会不会看，但在此的我，还是抱着一万个希望，希望你不会忘了这个部落格，已经睡了对吧？
明天还要温习功课的。。。
呃。。。
当然是指你，难不成是我哦？呵呵
好了，我也写了很长了吧？
那我就在此停手吧，哈哈
虽然受了伤，但有一种想念，是无论受了多少伤，或是多么的难过，都依然会在的。。。
那就是，我对于你想念。。。
要加油哦！相信你明白我在指些什么的^^

:(

2010-01-15T13:52:00.004+08:00

Now posting in sch library=X
unhappy unhappy and unhappy:(
guess why plea?
jkjk^^
but i'm really emo now?
and i dun noe wats the reasons for it? =X
waiting for cca to starts....
and still got...
2 more hours for us t wait?
very tired sia~~
kena dog attack ytd..
den of course, i... shouted^^"
den kena scolded by mum and bro...
sobT-T
upset upset, i wanna cry...
no drops in at YG today...
den sch com is like cant go to facebook=X
wah, i wan "him"~~~~
i cry uh...
nvm, today i slept during POA lesson=X
and sarah koh didnt ask me to wake up^^
plus uh...
i almost sprain my ankle today...
pain sia~
and i hate "him"
hate hate hate>.<
but i err... still unable to hate "him"=X
very tired....
sian sian sian~~~
i hate "him"
but i wan "him"...
haizz...
to "him"
not angry wif u la...
wanna to be, but, i'm unable to=X
Jonathan say u bian guai lo?
ytd u stay in sch till wat time sia?
studying physics?
seems tat i got lots of question eh?
dun ask le^^
(or else i really will become nagging le=X)
today morning after HL den very tired, plus got bit of gastrict pain...
and i still, didnt eat during recess(dun like canteen food=X)

suan le, gt to say, sanyonara le^^
post for... 20mins plus, hmm...
i think "he" noe why^^"
k, bye:]
and i miss "him", really much...

Sch is reopening!

2010-01-03T22:48:00.001+08:00

Yeah!! Able to see u guys tmr le^^
and i juz found out tat "he" is really a bully wor... Lols
uh... Tat day "he" found "his" way back at 10sth in the morning(err... "he" actually didnt lost "his" way^^"), and chat till 12 sth... Cause bro suddenly, woke up=X
was fun^^ dun noe why, juz feel tat its fun^^
and next sis for helping me^^ u saw my dairy? About wat de? I got online dairy o? Lols if u mean tat website de, den u're the first one tat visits tat one^^ do u think its nice? Eeww can my sis get off my body? Err...
To "him": u think she is cute uh? Somehow, why dun i think so? T.T
wah, tmr must wake up very early sia den take bus wif rocky and his sis, heavy heavy, err... Meaning my bag very heavy, ytd chat wif zhe jia over the phone for dun noe how long, den suddenly hung up, den he call me again at about 8 in the morning? Gosh, i'm still sleeping at tat time? SobT.T
dad is scolding? Haizz... Gosh, damn tired now, but i only woke up at 4 today? Haizz... K, should say bye and goodnight now:) miss all of u, and "him" too^^
gonna buy a prepaid tmr... When i'm on the way to sch? *broke* T.T
k, goodnight, hav a sweet dreams and... Dun forget to wake up for sch tmr o... ^^
miss ya, u noe who:)

Erm... lost some links?

2010-01-02T07:57:00.003+08:00

Cause i dun noe why, my template got some prob, so...
got to change my blogskin, den the links is old de...
includes kel de, but for yours, i guess i still remembered^^
now chatting wif remus, and remus is no longer single le!!!
hahas
juz now frm... 5sth chat wif "him" till 6 sth...
cause "he" suddenly gone missing le...
and, haven found "his" road backT-T
juz now chat wif "him" was kinda irritated by the idiotic webcam
cause dun noe why, cant work??
den try le many times, still cant work, so, gave up?
to "him": err... am i rite saying like this? sry if i hav used wrong words^^" and really wont tell me wat u meant o?T-T
whew, sis, i need ur help, please...
dun noe why, the music player juz wont play musics?
no more batt lo? anw, sent one username and password for you le, (u noe, in case u forgot) if u did log in to mixpod for me, err...
the first playlist is current de bah...
and the userame and password works for every account o^^
kel should finished watching his movie le bah?
today is sat...
tmr is sun...
and next next day is mon...
which is the first day of sch...
which means...
today is the last and final day of the EOY holiday le, cause today is the last day we can slp late le, and woke up at 2 or 3pm...
my...
really time flies eh?
and i'm talking rubbish here?
oh, except for maths homework, i... haven done any homework yet...(i guess?)
i remembered we got eng, chinese and maths homework de rite?
will i kena killed soon???
*scareed scaredT-T*
but i dun care...(i'm a bad student rite??)
level four...
"u"'re right, not bad, can train stamina too^^
but it's for 365days minus public holidays and weekends, sch holidays is...
how many days?
lazy to count and dun noe how too...
hmmm...
should watch zhong ji san guo le^^
and "he" is not back yet...
haizz...
anw, is about to say bye lo:]
so will say now, guess this morning i hav... gone mad le...
agree wif me? so this blog is gonna to be mad wif me too right?
jack, somehow, i think u're right now wor...
lols, k la, bye^^
miss everyone, especially...
"him":]
anw, comments on this skin pls^^
tyvm!

Back for a while while^^

2010-01-02T01:39:00.001+08:00

New year le...
Will everything be better?
I dun noe, post upon request frm rocky kor...
Cause he said tat my blog has been dead for a long time which i... Agree^^"
bet everyone agree includes "him" rite? =X
only have one more day to sleep late le...
Sad, but... It was great! Hahas
also dun noe why^^"
erm... Sis, u dun hav to copy the timetable for me le, cause i alr copied it, thanks anw:]
miss u girl, i must hug u during first day of sch wor, js cant fight wif me, k? ^^
(cause he got it almost everyday le:'( *jealous le hahas)
haizz...
My bag is like going to be damn heavy!
Sis, i'm not going to bring my math textbook to sch, cause... Too heavy le=X
err... I'm going to try my luck for my hair, if she scold, den no choice tie them up lo, wat u think? Should i?
And "u" must teach me if i dun understand something o... =P
jk:]
how long hav i typed sia? =.=
hmm... Juz now was chatting wif "him"?(and "he" was not "him"...)
zhe jia has been calling me this few days, err... And now too, hahas
oh, great, "he" passed le! Hahas
was really happy bout it, but when sis told me another thing ytd, i was more happy, sis, do u noe wat thing is tat? ^^
k la, should end soon le, dun wanna to be killed by mum=X
so... Haizz bye...
As usual, i miss "him"... Its true k? Hmm... Still... Bye:]
and err... Goodnight too, even though i haven shower...=X

My com is spoiled:'(

2009-11-23T22:14:00.002+08:00

WahT-T
today when i finally done my computer mantianece and was like finnaly wanna to restart my com juz to let hav a disk check, den...
haizz...
com hang le!
sibei sad laT-T
so now, like wow, my bro is letting me to use com^^
my, he wan me to wake up at 7am, latest!
how can he be like tat? its... a torture! T-T
haizz...
how long didnt chat wif "him" le??
i think i got a long time didnt online le bah...
but ytd i still got online right?
not for long i think^^"
hmm...
was sad tat sis wont be having the same subject as me...
but nvm, at least she got wat she wanted right?
JY! dun forget to work harder o!^^
though now i cant actually use my own com, but!
i still can view my blog^^
so i can still reply to tags:]
even though it's ur choice to see if u're wan to tag anot=X
anw, sis, hav u bought ur books for next year?
wanna go buy together?
but i dun noe when will i go there=X
bbut i hope to hav one policy=X
k????
haizz...
miss you sister!
and "him" =X
gtg, bye, and love you! X3

Things juz doesnt happen at the right time

2009-11-19T17:43:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 6 sth today...
was tired, but still gt to get out of the bed:(
den elaine msged me...
and i made both xiao qin and elaine wait for me for about 1 hour or more than tat?
actually was planned to hav breakfast before we went to sch, but because of me, we can only hav it after seeing the results...
sry..
after seeing the results, went to cwp de foodcourt there, den saw their friends, they chat wif them for awhile, den find seats le den order food, xiao qin ordered spicy chicken sth...
and i ordered dumpling ramen, which i dun wan to eat the dumpling=X
but the funny part is, the spicy chicken smell like... eeww...
but xiao qin say tat it dun really taste tat bad juz smell like ... only, lols
after eating, accompany elaine go zap it to photocopy sth...
den xiao qin and i was like keep pressing things on the photocopier?
(actually is i started de=X)
after tat, elaine wanna go to the library, but i didnt go wif them, cause i wanna go swimming^^
but sth tat is really suay happened to me, u noe, when i alr dried my hair after showering right, den it rains:(
which caused my hair to get wet again!
sobT-T
but nvm, it will dry again, den reached city square quite soon after tat, went there to buy present for dad, actually was planned to buy a t-shirt for him de, but cant seems to find one sutiable de(for his age)
so i choosed to buy a wallet, the design was quite nice and i liked it:]
den go wrapped the present...
and took bus home den here i am! ^^
things happened in the bus?
not much of the serious stuff, juz tat i lost my tears in the bus, the first time when i cried in bus, "he" comforted me, but today, no one did(cause no one knew, even if they knew, they dun noe me:( )
not gonna to say the reason why i cried, or else, will cry again (i guess)
kinda of became a cry baby le, anw, tmr is a special day for sis:]
so sis:
Happy one year and third months together wif JS^^ and stay happy forever wor:]
dun do sth tat will make u regret, cause tat will make u really unhappy, and i wan u to be happy forever.advance wish for you and him:]
guess i will be really emo for the rest of my day le...
sry ryan, hope u wont hold against me for being emo, cause, i really cant smile...
it's 27.0 degree in my room now, but i'm still feeling cold=X
to "him":
dun care wat u think, but i'm sry...
and still, even i'm emo, i wont hurt myself, and u're right, i'm a girl who always follows others, i guess, tats the way i live my life for the past few years, but there are still things tat i wont, cant give u examples, but really, there's still sth tat i wont follow others...
ending now, sanyonara:]

New change of skin!!!

2009-11-17T22:55:00.002+08:00

Is this blogskin nice?
not sure, didnt ask sis or anyone else for opinion, but if can, can u all pls...
tell me how u feel bout this skin?
erm...
sry kel, i said tat i will use ur skin, but i didnt...
sry...
hmm...
reasons why i didnt update my blog and why i didnt online is because of my best brother in the world is using the modem to reformat his laptop?
where he got wireless network, and he dun wan to use it!
so, i didnt use com for...
how many days?
dun care, haizz...
because of com lagging, i didnt get to watch finish episode1 part 6/7 and 7/7 of 终极三国T-T
it's damn nice sia!
lols, thanx for recomendation by kel and elaine wor^^
now, sis, now it's my turn to recomend another drama to u, which is this!
hahas, kel and laine, u both... wont mind right? ^^"
hmm...
last msg i sent to "him" is 14th nov...
to tell "him" tat i wont be online cause of bro>.<
today "he" had "his" last paper:]
but i dun noe which sub=X
but still is happy for "him" ^^
hmm...
thursday...
will i get the sub tat i chose?
i hope i will...
sis choose geo...
so, i wont be wif her next year during HUM no matter wat lo?
*cause for the three choices, mine is all hist=X
bit sad, but still will be in the same class as her next year^^
den for "him"...
will still be my senior:]
k, for me, "he" is not only my senior^^
but my....
secret^^
sry, but i dun noe if i should say it out, though i guess "he" noe wat i'm gonna say le^^
although, all of them dun really suit "him"
*too old for "him" to be them le=X
hahas but if "he" could be all of them, it's not bad too^^
but i guess "he" dun wanna be, lols
ask "him" lots of times le, but i guess for all, "he"...
say no?
nvr mind:]
hmm...
gtg for shower le=X
so, bye:]
er...
sis, to be honest, i hav..
appeared offline since about 5.30pm?
ps and sry uh^^"
misses "him"
guess i wont be seeing "him" till 04/01/10? >.<

Able to be at home again! ^^

2009-11-13T16:03:00.002+08:00

Today didnt went for choir:]
guess now sis at there bah?
hope tat she wont suffer there>.<
hmm...
got sth creepy at the funeral there...
anyone can tell me why a dead person can still grow hair?
eh?
ytd my grandfather grow hair???
cool, but it's creep lo!
no one knew why, but my 2nd aunt say it's a miracle.
and i dun noe why she said tat? =="
i think is on 10/11?
"he" msged me^^
wasnt unhappy when "he" asked me to go along wif "him" and "his friends to... where uh?
haizz...
juz tat i cant go out, sry...
oh ya, on tat day is sin min b'day too:]
i hav asked wei ting to wish her happy birthday for me le(as i cant contact her==")
yts slept at about 5.30am...
den when i'm bout to sleep, i wanna to send "him" a good luck msg...
at 6.40am?
but i dun noe if "he" will be awake by tat time anot...
cause i hav alr woke "him" up twice when "he" is slping...
so i didnt send "him" tat msg, but still good luck till 17/11^^
hope tat "he" wont forget the yue tat we had tgt:]
>.<"
ytd i planned to post wif my dad phone de.
cause my phone cant post?
but...
when i'm about to click tat publish post?
DEN.
i accidentaly click close browser.
AND.
i lost things tat i hav typed le=="
was pek cek at tat time, plus i was rudely waken up by mum ytd, at bout 8+ when i only sleeps at bout 4!
so was damn tired when i woke up...
was hungry tooT-T
but no choice, still hav to guai guai de get up=X
still got things to post...
but nvm, lazy to post for today le=X
haizz...
to "him":
if u did viewed my blog before signing in to msn....
...
wat am i gonna to tell u le?
damn, forgot le, but nvm, dun noe if i told u this before, during these days, dun keep dota, and forgot bout revising hor.
done, was getting more and more naggy these days=X
but still a reminder for "him"
hope "he" wont xian me being too naggy=X
anw, bye:]
and i miss him...

...=X

2009-11-09T11:23:00.002+08:00

...
today when i first saw mum, she told me sth which i cant really believe it?
her dad, which is my grandfather, had juz died ytd in the hospital...
remember few days ago i said tat i dreamt of one of my relative had died?
it's my grandfather, but is my dad side de(though he alr died for bout 2 years?)
but.. cant believe now it's actually my mum side uh?
kinda of strange...
... continue saying these, and i will be telling my grandmother story le...
so, gt to end it here:]
tonight i wont be at home bah...
cause got to be at the funeral there=X
will i be at home tonight??
i think will.
yes?
no?
watever!=X
not going to choir tmr le^^
how will mdm ng thinks bout me?
i dun care:]
11:36am le...
think "he" did went to sch bah...
so...
think i will still update my blog, but..
i dun noe if i will still be online anot...
maybe yes bah...
cause even if i'm not at home still can use phone to online, right?
though its not really nice...
why is it tat even though i'm not close to my relative, but i'm still feeling upset leh?
someone tell me pls?
can i look for "him"?
no, "he" got lesson now...=X
haizz...
Jy for "him":]
bye and, now it's still morning, so, good morning:]

No comment...

2009-11-08T23:39:00.005+08:00

Some comment on how my sis look like, k?
cause...
i dun really hav comments on it, as i think tat she looked abit like japanese or a malay girl?

took when her first performance end=X

wow, today was really bored at there?
wanna to slp, keep yawning, but still hav to take photos/videos of sisT-T
sad la, why must be me leh??
anw, i slept at 4 ytd=X
so today didnt managed to wake up in the morning^^"
but still did online, not for long...
den like finally, after 4 or 5 days didnt chat wif "him", i chat wif "him" le:]
but not for long too, cause i gtg to see the perfomance and tat time "he" gtg for awhile=X
was abit tired todayT-T
eh, no, should be really really tired today...
"he" wont be online tonight le...
cause tmr "he" still got lesson=X
so must still think for "him"...
dun wanna later tmr "he" cant wake up=X
so, he didnt online, as i told "him" tat i will be online at 12 or 1am...
not lying to "him"...
is tat..
when i msged "him" tat time, i was still at my grandma house, tats why, and i haven showered...
so...
i thought i might be online at 12 or 1am...
sry...
dun really hav things to post about today...
but...
hui xin told me sth today, when i'm offline...

CY,dont be distracted by love,because it not worth it for you to love someone who doesnt loves you..

dun really noe why would she say this to me, but...
is it true?
hmm..
gtg le...
to "him":
i'm... still sry=X
cause i dun noe u hav lesson tmr and really, i thought tat when i on my com again, will be 12 or 1 le...
tats why i said tat^^"
anw, hope u slp earlier, and goodnight^^
note: hope u wont be late tmr:]

goodnight my blog, will visit u tmr^^
bye, dun forget to miss me, k? :]

Sis, u win le...

2009-11-08T01:00:00.004+08:00

Lols, k, sis, i will appear online since u wan me to, k?
but, must still hav condition de wor...
IF
cy really got no mood to appear online, can appear as offline de wor...
deal? ^^
erm...
ytd night?
at about 12 am+
den my sis, swallowed her ring=X
and was crying till i cant slp? T-T
k, admit tat i'm abit harden heart.
(cause is still thinking of slping when sis swallowed her ring=X)
but, can only blame herself??
as u noe, she is playful like... ahem >.<
so, of course, wont be really nice to her..
hmm...
tmr might be online inb th morning only, cause sis, got a performance in the evening=X
didnt really wan to go...
(hav to listen to those speech T-T was boring...)
but nvm, can hide there and slp at there? ^^
hahas
tta was fun, though it's like odd one out, but i do hate tat kind of stuff eh?
think i can predict wat the principal will say...
thanx to the student and blah blah things...
lol...
erm...
was abit rude towards the principal eh?
my, sry...=X
anw, today was craving to go for swimming today??
but...
was NOT AT HOME TODAY!!!
dad told me i will be back home at 1 or 2pm...
BUT.
i only reached home at 9pm!
*without having my dinner=X
shouldnt hav trusted them...T-T
wasted my time...
...
wrote sth on my phone to "him"...
but "he"... will nvr noe??
It's sad when people you know
become people you knew
When you can walk right past
someone like they were never a
big part of your life.
i don't
MISS YOU
i miss the person
i thought you were
How you used to be able to talk
for hours and now you can
barely even look at them...

k, shall end here now...
miss "him" even though he might be offline now le..
goodnight to "him"
(hope he didnt forget to revise... when "he" is dota-ing=X)
*hey, "he" haven offline yet?
lols^^
but still bye and goodnight:]

I had a "nightmare"!

2009-11-06T19:20:00.002+08:00

I actually dreamt tat one of my relative had died?
didnt remember it clearly, but i noe at tat point of time, i was upset, even though i'm not really close to them..
so it can be counted as a nightmare for me eh?
"he" didnt online for 3 days le(includes today)=X
dun noe why "he" didnt online, but i noe, i dun really feel like i wanna be online too le=X
dun noe why=="
never had a dream come true?
tats wat i'm listening to now, on the bbq day, because of this song, i cried more...
miss 2/1 uh...
missed the days tat we hav gone through things tgt as a class, even though i didnt done much to help in class, but i love the class, got many active girls and guys:]
and miss kok too^^
think she wont be teaching 3/2 next year le...
and i wont get to c her in the class today?T-T
today watched "fated to love u" again, cause nth to do le?
i guess, the role tat i liked the most is tat guy who has the same name as "him"?
lols
sis, u should noe it right?
the first time i watch it, i still dun noe "him" yet=X
lols
but now, is kinda different le, right?
cause i noe "him", so i will noticed tat role, he is a really nice guy in tat role, really nice!
a caring brother, juz a guy who can make me feel really touched^^
wonder if "he" is like tat??
dun think so?
cause...
secret^^
hahas
shall end it here le, cause gtg for dinner le?
oh ya, recently i will be appearing as offline, cause...
dun really wan to appear online?
k, bye:]
hope he can online soon^^

No mood to post?

2009-11-05T22:23:00.002+08:00

Dun really hav the mood to post today...
dun noe why=.="
ya, tmr i wont be going to cca le, informed sis le.
to feng hao and james:
sry...
james:
not angry wif u:]
to "him":
dun noe if u noe i hav updated my blog anot, but i guess ytd when u online is at lan bah?
cause remus say he saw u at lan?
btw, not stalking u hor...
juz he said de..
planned to return those movies to jonathan tmr de...
but...>.<
so, cant le, and sis, if u did viewed my blog before slping, help me tell jonathan tat i'm sry as i cant return vcds to him...
ty:]
k, ending my post le..
was lovesick at 4.16pm=X
den fell asleep till 8pm=X
and i only woke up at 11+ am today sia=X
wow, i can slp for so long eh?

Back again:]

2009-11-04T22:49:00.003+08:00

Lols, should i quit blogging instead?
since i always might get banned>.<
talk bout ytd bah, got choir, den went to meet sis they all wif james at arcade, den took bus to rp, ate fish and chips at there? was damn nice^^
den because choiris about to start, so me and sis leave first lo, but when we are leaving, i saw "him" wif "his" friends at the front door there:]
lols, was happy^^ and was glad, so in choir, didnt really complained much, except for times after calling my mum=X
think "he" knew bout this=X
after choir, and tats when i got the surprises and upset:I
surprises is tat sis asked me to go yg, den they actually planned a surprise belated birthday party for me?
lols, was like sooo shocked=X
anw, thanx everyone tat wished me happy birthday and those who planned for the surprise:]
and jonathan gave me a T-shirt?(to encouraged me to run more=X)
den remus gave me piglet:]
bought at action city, dun noe how much it cost, but thanx anw:]
(actually forgotten tat i told him i like piggy before=X)
but all of it was not the present, the best present is... a birthday greeting^^
was really happy when i received it^^
some ppl might noe who is it frm, but not gonna tell, cause i'm quite surprised by it too=X
whew, thamx to "him" ytd:]
cause if not, there will be more wound on my hands le eh?
tyvm^^
hmm...
should i promise "him" tat i wont hurt myself again?
perhaps i should, if not if i hurt myself again, den "he" wont talk to me leT-T
but wat if i promised le den i broke it?
wont be very nice like tat right?
ask "his" opinion btr bah^^
today was like damn ....... sian at home, so faced the com for the entire day:]
think at 12+, "he" got online for awhile, awhile only=X
so didnt chat wif "him"
k, shall end soon again=X
again, thanx uh^^
especially my sis, who tagged me on facebook, blog, msn, friendster and... still got??
lols, thanx anw^^
to "him":
wei, dun sound so fierce lehT-T
scary=X
lols, guess u wont be online ltr le, so, goodnight and miss ya plus thanx for everything ytd^^
bye:]

Posting wif my dad hp

2009-11-02T23:21:00.001+08:00

Was happy today:]
i receive the best b'day present ever, not hp, or anything, and not gonna tell u all^^
secret=X
though received it abit late, but its ok:]
thanx everyone tat had wished me a happy birthday, lols, ytd night, james msged me at 12am? lols, teached by sis=X
lols den today thought "he" forgot my b'day le, but no, lols hahas^^
k, gtg now or dad phone bill will burst, hahas, lols dad is allowing me to drink now, lols
so good, den mum is like saying dad bout letting me to drink, lols *today b'day cake taste like eeewww=X really gtg le, sry to "him"... haizz unable to chat wif him these days, was like bit upset... =X k, i miss "him" T.T bye:]

Sry..

2009-10-31T00:01:00.002+08:00

To "him": sry, sry... today i reached home only at about 930, so... only is able to online at this time... sry...
hope u're not angry wif me, plea~
not purposely de.... sry sry.....
hmm...
maybe u're slping now?
but still, i'm sry...
...
erm...
today was like msg "him" the whole day again?
den didnt really stop till my phone no batt=X
sigh...
understand tat "he" is really tired today, cause "he" went to swimming, but, lols, today was like hope tat i can miss the 950 tat i'm taking, cause den can c "him" le, hahas^^
today looked at both "his" class photos, was ok, but really, when he smile, "he" looked nicer^^
erm..
received choc frm James today?
he say it's for my b'day present, den like lols, i ate two of the choc in the bus le=X
*cause was too hungry liao^^
tmr is going for the class bbq at east coast^^
anw, i got wrote about the class bbq in my post uh?
why i dun noe de??
anw, think "he" is going to east coast tmr too^^
and as i dun noe how to go east coast, so he might bring me and sis there:]
hmm...
was really quite dissapointed in my results today, cause i didnt get to go 3/1, and sis too, i guess...
was abit emo after i saw my result, feeling like i wanna cry, but i cant=X
*though my eyes is watery liao(only sis saw:])
den we watched our class video^^
and..
i criedT-T
cause wat angel lao po wrote was really toooooo touching le:'(
will really be "his" junior all the way le... lols
1/1, 2/1, den 3/2=X
was bit bit sad bout it, but nvm, cause there is always a bright side of everything, heard frm "him" and ravin(is tat his name?), this year 3/1 class got 25 or 27 stud need to retest?
so it seems to be really difficult for the 3/1 stud eh?
speaking of retest, must jia you...
hmm...
today post enough le(i think)
to lao po, sis and those who is unable to get into 3/1:
everthing will be fine:]
*copied frm my lao gong=X
juz noe tat there is every reasons why u cant get into 3/1, perhaps it's not tat u're not good enough, maybe it's juz tat u're more suitable to be in 3/2, as u noe, some of our maths foundation is not really good(no offence)
so, if we really do get into 3/1, den we really will hav a hard time coping wif A maths and E maths. right?
so look at the bright side plus remember wat ms fasha had said and dun give up on urself when u'r in 3/2 juz because u cant meet up to ur expectation, juz jia you! k?
*though i might also give up on myself=X
hmm...
k, to "him" again now:
u must really work hard, k?
and if u're angry wif me, pls dun...
dun ask me why, cause... i dun noe=X
hmm...
thanx for coming to yg and let me look at the photos today^^
and u're right, the second de look nicer cause u got smile^^
and thanx for msging me today:]
hav a good sleep and sweet dreams today^^
or should i say every night?
dun care, lols, still the same three words to u, c. m... u^^
remember, slp well^^
and good night, bye bye:]
c u all tmr^^
*provided i'm able to=X

Damn!

2009-10-29T15:45:00.002+08:00

Damn sia, wat happened to me ytd??
why i ytd suddenly like wrote so many stuff?
hope "he" can pretend tat "he" didnt see anything frm my second post ytd eh?
haizz...
maybe ytd i was like too tired or sth liao...
as dun noe why, whenever i'm tired, i will do strange things de...
haizz..
was bit bit ps sia...
about wat i wrote...
hmm...
R3 day eh?
i'm tired till siao, was like keep carrying the newspaper=X
den we got human chain when we carry newspaper to the truck^^
(idea by Fareesha)
den i'm in group 9, which is Zi Hao is the leader...
lols, guys, when they c those "stuff", will like keep on looking at tat=="
den got one resident really good sia, got two trolley at home, so we borrowed them and used it to carry the collected newspaper to the collection center^^
but sharul, is like keep dropping the newspaper on the floor=X
hmm...
k, during the collection time, was msging James and Elaine:]
and after tat, Yu Hui msged me, asked us where we were, (and also complained to me about the truck driver)
damn, juz injured my sis...
she was like keep disiao me, den when i like take her hands off the mouse, and she fell down=X
(maybe i used too much strengh le...)
haizz...
k, continue, she msged me, and she was at mac den...
err... i... admit, i asked her where is "he", den she said...
hmm.... wat she said le uh???
kao, was quite pek cek now...
now was ok abit le...=X
hmm...
"he" say tat "he" will online at 6pm right?
den wait for "him" bah, lols
den ytd was chatting wif "him" after "he" fininshed dota-ing:]
lols, i'm abit sot again leT-T
was actually regretting wat i had posted ytd la...
but abit lazy to delete tat post?
juz ignore bah, though "he" read finished le=X
and "he" understood wat i meant actually...
"he" reached home le bah??
nvm, cause juz only will wait for "him" to online, maybe will change blogskin ltr on...
cause, 看到闲了...
hmm...
think sot girl will end her post here bah...
and of course....
towards "him", will always feel ps z^^z
cause ytd wrote those things to "him"...
like abit no link eh??
erm...
if i continue to write those stuff, will "he" stopped viewing my blog or chat wif me?
i dun think will la, but is think only, so, today, shall not say write any of my other feelings to "him" bah, in phone, think will bah^^
hmm...
"his" phone haven been fixed yetT-T
but "he" is now using "his" friends phone, right?
at least i'm finally able to contact "him" le?
hope he will come online soon bah (and pray tat i'm not slping at tat point of time=X)
bb^^

Second post of today...

2009-10-28T21:35:00.004+08:00

Cause was abit too bored since "he" was dota-ing...
so i'm posting again:)
though was feeling abit emo now, but nvm, sure will get better soon^^
juz now, "he" was asking me few questions, and wat i ans "him", was not lies...
seems to be abit too overboard if missing "him" today uh?
why uh?
i'm really beggining to feel tat i'm not me..=X
haizz...
dun noe if tmr i'm able to take my phone to sch anot...
cause mum say wat because i reached home ltr den 4.30pm, so it's a punishment?
but i only reached home ltr by 10 to 15 mins only...
haizz...
sad la, how can she be like tat leh??
damn, was still feeling quite emo now....
wahT-T
i wanna cry~~~
or maybe i dun wan?
cause as wat i experienced today, if i cried at night, tmr morning, my eye will be swollen, so, better dun bah.. (and somemore i cant cry whenever i feel like)
so...
forget it, and smile:)
perhaps sis was right, asking ppl to cheer up, does not mean tat when u, urself is sad can cheered up too...
and to "him": i agree tat James is really a nice guy, but, when sometimes, it really takes both hands to clap... so, towards James, i dun wanna hurt him, neither do i wan to lose this friend, but i noe i hav alr make it clear to him, the rest is up to him le, i wont avoid him, juz like u wont avoid me, but really, sometimes i think tat i'm too not like a girl le, normally, a girl wont do these stuff de, right? but maybe, because i'm like so used typing things, so it will express my feelings clearer, and i dun only wrote it on blog, also in my phone, saved as draft, i guess, u might be shocked when u see them bah? cause most of the things there were abit emo, sad and feelings of a girl towards a guy tat she noe, and tat guy gave her courage to end the relationship between her and her stead, i believe only tat guy is able to do tat, cause when her friends asked her to end it, she will juz treat it as if she didnt heard them... she is also wondering how does this guy is able to gave her the courage, but even though the courage is frm him, but she noe tat she will end the relationship is not because of him, juz, he let her noe tat she cant hurt her stead anymore, and it's time for her to face up to her feelings le... but to her, she does not hope tat tat guy will hav feelings for her, she juz hope to keep in touch wif him, cause she noe tat she cant stop thinking of him, even if she noe tat she will be punished if she gets home late, she was willing to wait for him, juz to take a look at him, she noe tat everything will be like tat is beacause she really, fell for tat guy le... there wont be one day tat she wont write down her feelings for him, sometimes, it wasnt even once a day, but, a few times a day, really, it's more than she can imagine, it's the first time she had been like this, in class, she had been hoping tat he will come to sch, and walk past her class, even though, he wont notice her... for him, she will even ans his call in class, in the past, she, nvr will, and so, this time, she was sure tat, this is really a special feelings, but the more she thinks, she will think tat last time before he asked for her num frm his friends, she even think tat he's irritating whenever he past by our class wif his friends, but now, she actually hope tat he can walk past her class every single day, so tat she can take a look at him... it's strange, isnt it? a guy tat she had known for only 1 month, is exactly one month wor... will hav such a great impact on her...
so, do u understand wat i meant? lols, dun think tat i'm too 啰嗦 wor, cause, it's a real life story:)

k, shall end my second post here today, and of course, hope tat "he" wont lose during the game uh? ^^
bye:] (mood turned better now^^)

Back again?

2009-10-28T18:35:00.005+08:00

Yup, was again sitting infront of my com, shiok!
nan de^^
hahas
but"he" wasnt online now...=X
although "he" say can put his name le, but can i...
err... choose not to?
cause u noe, everytime "him" "him" "him" de, den suddenly put "his" name...
not really getting use of it, lols
hope "he" wont mind uh...
today got the post-examination activities, first thing after the assembly is the healthy breakfast...
noe wat?
the sandwich taste...
eeewww~
yucks!
after having a bite, i ran up to Angel and throw the rest of it into the rubbish bag=x
though i noe it's bit wasteful, but... still yucks!
den milo, hmm...
still ok?
cause it's in pack de^^
(though i dun really drink milo^^")
the grapes was still ok too, but juz tat the skin taste bit strange...
lols, seems tat i'm really fussy eh?
but really, ask me to eat tat sandwich, i rather go buy canteen de, taste better^^
den dear sister lost her earingT-T
sad for her, dun cry uh, sister~
sis, u wont cry de, hor?
u so "independent" =P
hmm...
dun noe wat did bro ate today, suddenly lifted the ban...
lols, anw, heard frm yuhui tat "he" came to sch only at 9++?
why so late?
overslept again? or?
called "him" since ytd, den..
... "he" didnt picked up the phone...
today, cant get through "his" phone=X
ask di to ask "him", den "he" said tat "his" phone spoiledT-T
*didnt ask "him" myself cause afraid tat "he" is angry wif me...
why suddenly cheek abit hot uh?
is it because i mentioned "him"? o.O
really warm sia=X
thinking of "him" too much??
lols
tmr got CIP sia^^
why am i like so happy?
lols
argh~~~
cy miss "him"....
can call "him" now?
cant...
cause surendered my phone to mum le, plus "his" phone spoiledT-T
got to end soon^^
*today saw "him" at yg, hahas, happy till.... LOLS
really, though cant call "him", but still can see "him"
hahas^^
but bit angry wif "him" still=X
k, will end once this sentence is done...
bye:]
hope "he" is not angry wif cy... cause cy noe she miss "him"...
now i noe why i'm so happy today le, lols
think u all will also noe le rite?? o.O
shh~
bye^^

Posting in com lab^^

2009-10-22T09:33:00.005+08:00

Hee^^
now i'm posting in com lab 2 during science periods^^
ps, house modem got probs...
so cant online and updateblog...
and sis is sitting next to me and desiao me...
lols
tuesday gt choir and got sudden flu=X
so ytd didnt went to sch...
but i guess, no one knew eh?
lols
haizz...
dun noe if "he" is sick on tues anot...
cause "he" is not in sch too=X
was looking for "him" during "his" recess time...
cause i slack wif sis during mdm fang lesson...
lols^^
was now laughing out loud...
cause sis was saying things tat made me laugh...
lols!
hmm...
gtg le... or later wai yin come...
den i die le...
lols, bye^^
thinkingof calling"him" now? =X
anw, he got come to sch today?
tat mak chienying is thinking of dylan quekping zhou from 3/2. pk dun jealous hor <3
by Vynx'Kor& Sis

Me... finally got mouse le=.="

2009-10-11T01:58:00.003+08:00

Now, i'm finally using a pc wif a mouse?
lols
and, bout "him"...
"he" doesnt really hope to put his name...
so... sry? ^^"
ws kinda in a good mood today...
and i juz showered?
but now...
i... dun dare to go downstairs and dry my hair=X
cause ytd 8++pm...
my bro saw a white shadow?
and almost step on it??
and so, now...
i err...
dun dare to go out of my room?
and now...
i got another deal wif bro le...
which is...
1st: every sunday, must report 3 things tat i hav learnt on internet...
2nd: if i didnt go according to the deal, den i will hav to hand over my mp3, earphones and... no longer able to acess to my com FOREVER!=X
and, ya, late le...
so, gtg, bye^^
still thinking of "him"...
everyday...
and moments...=X

>.<"

2009-10-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

Back to post?
finally?
haizz...
will die on wed...
cause my mum told DM sth tat some of u might noe...
haizz...
k...
now, got to end my post soon, cause i post without letting my bro noe...
so when he finished showering...
i got to off the tab le=X
eh...
about the "him"...
dun u all noe?
thought u all noe sia...
including "him"...
dun noe if "he" wans anot...
if "he" allow...
den i will put "his" name on my next post... k?
gtg...
bye^^"
and... i miss "him" really...
much=X

Abit sot?

2009-10-06T21:11:00.002+08:00

Today was waiting for sis for about 1hr?
den the funny part is, when i look for her, she is nt the place she suppose to be?
lols
den went to help selvan wif sis and lavendar?
my god, the store was damn dirty...
lols
selvan, sis and lavendar disiao me and "him" sia...
lols
well, after helping her, i was like tired till siao...
was feeling sleepy as well...
so went to yg...
when i'm about to be asleep...
lavendar, sis, seng hong told me tat "he" came le...
lols?
i wanna get asleep...
den i was waken up by them again!!!
lols
btw, four things happened at yg today...
haizz...
den i now was stucked between remus and zhe jia...=x
maybe...
"he" is angry wif me now...
bt sry...
no choice i'm worried bout him...
and i wan to noe why will it happen de...
i'm sry!
btw...
i kena disiao by "him"...
lols
and, ytd i add few more songs for my blog when i'm at aunt house^^
dun noe nice anot...
but, pls comment uh?
if it's not nice, den i will delete it de:)
hmm...
going to hav my dinner now?
den k, will be going den, or bro? mum? or dad?
is going to nag me till i die le..
lols
k, la, bye^^
i'm missing "him" right now? o.O

Lols

2009-10-05T20:20:00.003+08:00

Today mum came to sg to meet Mr Raja?
den she saw me wif remus walking to my bro sch?
lols
she misunderstood the relationship between me n him sia
lols!!
den finally, i was like keep hoping to find someone tat noe me and him
and i finally, found one, lols
though i dun noe tat guy, but he do look familiar to me...
lols
hmm... talk about the paper today bah...
for paper one...
i juz say bye to 7 marks(cause i dun hav enough time to do?)
den like feeling down tat time...
plus pk was like dun wan to take things frm me...
so i was hot!!!
and i showed attitude to "him"...
i'm soooo sry....
i dun mean it...
really...
i was so pek cek till i cant focus on paper two....
which resultsin saying bye to 14 marks...
i was really upset by this...
haizz...
because of pk la...
total, i was juz taking a exam which gt 79 marks?
damn la...
haizz...
i was...
feeling guilty towards myself?
lols, gonna torture myself again...
haizz...
btw, ytd seems to "quarrel" wif "him" ytd?
but i think now is ok le...
lols...
hmm.. was updating my blog at my aunt house?
juz showered...
but was feeling warm...
haizz...
lols....
hmm...
today, is the last day of examination!!!
but "his" one will end on friday...
lols
jia you for "him" lo^^
btw, me and sis will be helping selvan tmr?
and, today me ask fasha to persuade my mum to allow me to go to class bbq sia~
lols
noe wats fasha last resort?
is to send me back home...
till my house door!!
lols
can u all actually believe it?
lols
and, btw, eh...
i might nt be able to online today...
cause i'm still in sg, yishun rite now??
haizz...
sis, remus, yu hui, remus?
still remember the guy we met in seven eleven today?
lols
think i'm too late le...
lols
cause he said he will go to yishun de seven eleven,and fix tat thing rite?
lols...
didnt meet him...
lols
k, had my diiner le..
lols
k, gtg le, bye^^

I feel like i wanna die?

2009-10-04T19:08:00.001+08:00

Me got no mood for everything now...
haizz...
sad la>.<"
can i say vulgar?
>.<""
haizz...
eat sweet bah^^
oh ya, still gt chocolate^^
yes!
ltr can eat le, wahahahas^^
(provided i didnt forget)
lols
haizz...
"he" slp at 7am ytd?
or maybe should i say today?
den woke up at 4 or 5 plus?
lols
den now...
juz dota-ing again?
hmm...
chatting wif sis and ryan...
nt "him" because i think he is nt free?
lols
i'm keep reminding sis to revise when i haven revised finished yet...
lols
remus asked yu hui to tell me go for dinner...
bt...
i was like, nth to eat?
except for chocolate and ricola^^
kkk, i will go eat my chocolate, cause if nt, he dun wan to study for his n lvl tmr>.<"
haizz...
n, "he" replied me le^^
lols
damn happy uh?
lols
pk is meeting me for awhile tmr, though dun noe for wat...
but yu hui wanna follow me sia~
n...
somemore i cant choose:'(
can "he" help me?
lols
maybe "he" can de wor...
lols
to "him" : pls~~
reasons being: pk wont do anything to me de, and this like concerning bout me n him...
me and him is still friends, so is for awhile only...
noe she concern bout me...
but....
juz let me handle this myself, k?
i'm sry...
haizz...
k, gtg, bye^^

I'm bored!!!

2009-10-04T13:47:00.003+08:00

Guess today will hav 3 post from me?
lols
no choice, got nth i can really do without a mouse...
haizz...
lols
remembered i mention things bout someone?
tat person noe it's him le...
lols
so fast>.< scary=".="">
lols
listening to Inconsoable now...
lols
nice song, though it's quite old le...
but i still like it, lols^^
ytd i'm like keep speaking up for remus when i chat wif "him"
den "he" asked me " u like him ar? why keep speaking for him?"
lols how would i like him?
when he was only my friend?
i guess "he" was only joking when he asked this de:)
but so nice, everyone seems to be celebrating latern festival ytd uh?
and i'm like being alone, emo-ing?
even though it does not last long when i reached home?
cause gt "him", remus^^
bt nt ryan, cause he said tat he was celebrating lantern festival:)
i found out sth...
i'm always chatting wif guys, but nt girls...
lols
btw, can someone pls suggest which website dun actually require the use of mouse?
lols, dun think anyone will ans me de lo=X
lols
i'm like so fei by asking this question..
my post seems to be really long lately uh?
if i can do this for my compo or watever stuff tat requires writng, how nice it will be?
lols
btw, how does he now tat the someone is him de uh?
so obvious ar?
lols
i will be saying sry to my brain again...
cause i make it loses lots of cells...
lols, ps uh brain...
after tmr.
after tmr, i wont let u suffer till end of this month le...
k?
deal uh?
i'm talking to myself again?
lols
haizz...
ending sentence:
wat i post this time is... really lame+strange!!!
lols, k la, bye^^

House war...

2009-10-04T00:05:00.002+08:00

This house war dun noe happen how many times le...
lols
world war only happened twice...
den house war?
i guess more den ten times le bah?
haizz...
why am i posting twice today?
no choice, dun really can do any thing without mouse...
haizz...
cant change blogskin, cant visit my dear xuan xuan and piggy on facebook...
more importantly, i cant change my blogsong!!!!
gt abit tired for this blogsongs le leh...
lols
"he" is dota-ing in progress...
so dun disturb him bah...
and...
somemore...
remus said tat whenever he talk to me, he will sure die one>.<
lols
hmm...
today i guess i got really pek cek at the shopping mall because of mum dun wanna buy for me sweet tat will cost her $6.99>.<"
bt why i dun think there's any thing wrong wif it de uh?
lols, maybe i'm really a bigspender...
lols
haizz..
guess mum if fighting wif dad?
juz now still bang the door so loud...
haizz...
btw, i bought a bracelet^^
(sponsered by dad:) )
haizz..
mum is crying now?
and shouting away...
mid-autuum festival eh?
guess this house will nvr need any celebration bah...
which includes birthdays...
cause last year..
sis birthday: dad seems nt to be interested in celebrating for her...
mum birthday: i got her a yam cake, but... gt house war again...
my birthday: my cake kena destroyed by dad when he brakes the car(which is his fault)
dad birthday: he didnt came home, so no celebration, no nth!
bro birthday: guess we juz went out for dinner and tats all?
everytime when we got any events or wat, we juz went for seafood dinner...
dun noe for how many years le...
every year is the same old thing...
even the dishes we ordered is the same!
guess i'm really sick of them?
last time, when there's sch hols, we will go outing?
but now...
nth!
though i hav gotten used of it, but i still miss the old days...
can i shout for help?
i'm really sick of it le...
all i wish is, when will everything be back to normal?
dun really wish for a happy birthday when my birthday comes, juz hope tat we can still back to wat we used to be, a happy family... (where we go out as a family)
this family is nvr a normal one...
and so, my heart...
is always empty...
wanna to look for someone who can really filled my emptied heart to full...
is it possible?
how i hope it will be tat someone...
but i guess...
he will nvr noe how i feel towards him...
some ppl might noe who is tat guy, but to him, i'm juz a normal girl who will always joke wif him...
so, i hav decided.
i will juz remain the girl who will joke wif him...
and, to be his guardian angel( if i'm able to)
though it's like quite...
but i will still try de:)
i really hope tat i can understand him more...
haizz...
jia you for me bahx!
tats for today( i think, if nth happen...)
gdnite... bye:)

Help! I'm gonna to be killed by maths!!!!

2009-10-03T16:21:00.003+08:00

Help!!!!
i gt alot of dead brain cells in my head!!!
help~~~
juz finished revising chap 8, but still hav to memories the formula...
haizz...
suddenly got a feeling tells me tat i'm about to burst into tears liao...
haizz...
find myself too useless le...
lols
how?
soon or ltr, i'm juz like so going to be sick le...
cause now like got bit fever...
haizz...
ytd i slept at 3am sth?
den woke up at about 10.30am?
haizz...
i dun wanna to be in this family...
i cant control myself by shouting...
haizz...
if this still continues...
i will lose my voice de...
sad la, haizz...
today "he" didnt online, cause he dun noe go where...
so didnt online...
haizz...
sad:(
den ryan today msg me when he is at library wif his friend..
but as my phone suddenly no money le, so, cant reply him...
ps uh~
will "he" be online today?
haizz...
gt abit sore throat liao...
haizz...
they asked me to go out...
but i dun wan to!
too bad, i cant choose....
haizz...
got a feeling as if i'm odd one out in this family...
haizz...
sad...
k la, gtg le..
or ltr mum and bro is nagging liao...
haizz...
really about to cry le...
haizz...
k, bye:)

Emo kia, today abit emo le...

2009-10-03T00:06:00.002+08:00

Ytd chat on msn till 12.45am, so i'm like damn tired!!!
keep knocking my head since i'm awake... lols
den keep on studying geo till i reached sch liao...
lols
believe tat i actually almost hit a pole when i'm reading?
lols
common for me la:P
today paper is Integrated Humanities...
studied history notes till very late ytd...
den chat wif ryan and "him"
bt as he's tired, so he went to bed first:(
anw, i was like keep disturbing him lo, abit guilty leh...
how?
though he said nvm...
haizz...
wat he studied didnt came out sia!
how can it be like tat de?!
lols
for me, i think the paper is still quite easy la
bt i dun noe wat thing about the Maria thing de...
haizz...
so tat one, anyhow write, hope didnt lose lots of marks...
haizz...
today pei sis to attend the maths extra lesson at 10.30...
bt nt long after, something happened...
and it make me feel quite empty...
haizz...
den became emo, used sis phone to msg "him"
asked him whether can teach me maths at yg anot...
den he said sure, bt he didnt turned up:'(
so still tat emo face at yg...
bt didnt blame him, as "he" was nt obliged to be wif me all the times...
haizz..
mon gt maths paper...
sad la, still gt 2 or 3 chaps dun understand...
haizz...
must jia you lo!
which includes everyone uh..
plus "him" :)
actually when i online today rite?
suddenly he offline liao, still thought tat he dun wanna chat wif me sia...
lols
bt when i came back frm dinner at 10.30pm, he did chat wif me^^
but now, guess he is dota-ing rite now...
lols
hmm...
still on msn chat wif ryan...
lols, k, gtg, bye^^

Sianx...

2009-10-01T17:39:00.002+08:00

Haizz...
today damn sian lo...
phone no money le...
sad la:'(
haizz...
dun care le...
talk about today paper bah...
actually it's not too difficult, bt i left two questions blank...
reasons being: not enough time plus i dun noe how to do...
haizz...
still ok lah, as even if both of the questions mark combine together, only consist of 3 marks...
haizz...
but still thinking tat i didnt did my very best leh...
how?
haizz...
somemore tmr got history and geography paper...
still the same problem...
haven studied yet...today went to library wif Yu Hui, Joslyn, Jun Siang and Kenneth...
but the last three of them went off first... den Yu Hui haven come...
so i alone emo-ing...
den think of msging "him"...
glad he did reply...
but seems tat i hav made him angry again uh?
haizz...
heard tat his paper was very hard, but he did his best, not like me...
haizz...
k, juz reached home not even for one hour, den on pc le...
lols
something wrong wif the mouse, so now i'm using com without mouse again!
>.<"
haizz...
k, gtg now, bye:)
anw, guys, JY for the paper u're taking tmr!

Surprisingly shock!!!

2009-09-30T19:49:00.002+08:00

Today, tried to study for science during silent reading period, bt luckily dun hav uh^^
cause kamarul study le, den kena confiscated...
sad uh?
haizz...
came to sch wif Elaine today, den the cleaners go close the side gates!
den no choice, got to go in by main gate, and who noe?
i saw "him" walking to sch too:)
lols
didnt really did emo these few days, cause there's no reasons for me to be emo^^
bt den, i'm still quite sry about "his" phone kena confiscate even though it's returned to him le...
haizz...
sry uh~~
lols, today i asked "him" one question...
no, in fact is alot...
lols
bt today, i'm a lonely girl since the sch dismissal...
cause no one is free:'(
Elaine and Xiao Qin wanna went home straight even though i said i'm going to library...
den for sis, she gt to take her new specs...
so i'm all alone:'(
bt nvm, can msg^^
i noticed tat...
i hav been msging the upper sec guys all day sia~
lols
bt i hav only msg one guy from upper sec these days^^
lols, my bf^^
abd, i got another gan kor le...
cant tell who is it...
ps^^"
k, gtg for msn le, anw, now i'm using the pc without a mouse!!!!
thanks to my bro...
hmph!
k la, bye, c ya^^

Same as ytd:)

2009-09-29T22:05:00.002+08:00

Still the same, me n "him" msg frm 7+ till dun noe wat time, cause i'm juz back from dinner and didnt told him tat i'm back le, lols
hope he wont be angry eh?
cause i hav made him pek cek during this afternoon, sry uh...
dun angry le la~
anw, gt one personal goodnews worx, my Yahoo! Answer account has lvl up to level 2 le^^
damn hell happy sia~
lols
and finally, bro actually praised me sia!
lols
miracle!!!
even though like this, i'm still worried for my SA2...
how?
haizz...
somemore i haven study finish yet...
today planned to study at YG de...
bt gt ppl came n irritates me, made me dun hav mood to study...
haizz...
btw, when "he" talks on phone, "he" sound really fierce sia~
scared scared uh~
lols
hmm...
tmr gt D'n'T!!!!
yipee~~
damn happy, even though i hav done finished my dun noe wat holder, bt the week before, me n sis made one heart shape wif two different acrylic!
somemore they fit together de sia!
so happy, planned to make somemore this week de, bt who noes, mr cheong said must throw away, so no choice lo... haizz....
lols, my maths on pythagoras thereom gt help le, cause gt my sec 3 teacher^^
wahahas
damn happy!!!
lols
hmm... still gtg liao, or else ltr he wait till pek cek le, lols...
bye bye^^
still gt more things de sia~
bt still hav to go...
bye~ :'(

I'm back^^

2009-09-28T20:28:00.003+08:00

Really am happy to be back for blogging now:)
dun noe how many ppl will actually noe tat i'm back le leh?
lols
haizz...
today gt one damn auntie is like shouting frm 4th floor to 1st floor where i am...
she shouted so loud tat i can actually heard her lo, lols
den tat auntie is like keep wanting the name of us, where got nine ppl.
still ask us nt to go, pls la, ask us stay for?
you misses us so much is it?
lols
if you miss us also dun hav to be like this de wat!
haizz...
den still say wanna call police( if i'm nt wrong )
den jonathan n roystan came and settle...
haizz...
still dun noe why she ask her stay sia( hate her stupid attitude! )
no offend though...
but today i msged "him" all day long...
lols
frm begining of the sch till 7pm+
lols
fun fun^^
hmm....
seems tat my parents is back n i hav to go for dinner le uh?
lols
haizz...
nvm, i hav promised lots n lots of stuff to my bro den he allow me to blog and install my msn de...
lols
seems nt to be an easy task eh?
lols
haizz...
k, everyone, goodnight and bye
of course also includes those lamers who actually used ben name to tagged my blog, hey, pls, dun use other ppl name to tag leh~
haizz...
nvm, bye:)
will relink/ link you all soon...
must hav patience uh( did i spelled wrongly? O.o )

Hehe, didnt go sch today^^

2009-08-04T17:49:00.002+08:00

Didnt went to sch today^^
cause today bro woke up late, den i like confirmed will late de...
as nt to chiong to sch, i dun wanna go sch...
bad horh?
i noe^^
bt tired la, ytd slept once i'm on my bed liao...
cried again today...
early in the morning 6 o'clock^^
chien ying cried because she's pek cek tat he bro woke up late for sch:(
ended up bro gt go sch n i didnt go...
lols
lazy la, stayed home for a day is good also rite?
xiu yang^^
wahahas
today lesson nt so important also, so, aiya, dun go lo, lols
hell, suddenly gt bit sore throat...
haizz...
lols
think ok de la, horh?
wahahas
why kel so early online le?
lols
kel is guai kia, go home straight after sch
tats why u're online so early rite?
lols, kidding kidding, thx for viewing my blog n ur concern worx^^
tyty^^
hahas, remember, smile worx:)
k, hav to speak for myself also, lols
hehe, chatting in progress^^
hmm...
also hav to thx kor, sis n syuhada for concerning why i didnt go to sch^^
ps wor, sis, pang seh u...
i'm sry...
bt...
at least i did my hw alr^^
except...
6E...
dun noe how to do plus i dun really wan to do sia...
haizz....
going out later...
bt dun noe when...
lols
kel, didnt reply meT-T
k, replied le^^
noe, u're nt really free, psps^^
k, gtg, bt nt going out
is to continue to protect my com^^
lols^^
k, bye bye^^

I'm Tired...

2009-08-03T18:46:00.002+08:00

WahT-T
juz came home only, den on com liao...
actually i planned to do hw first de...
den...
think still post first la...
so post lo, didnt really plan to online today...
so, i might or i might nt be online today...
today after sch, same last year grouping, including me:)
went to 806 for lunch^^
bt i'm really cold at thereT-T
nt because i'm sick, it's because something happened...
bt now alright le^^
so i'm hot...(warm)
ya, too bad, no fever...
temperature: 36.3^^
wahahas
nice nice^^
den today think selvan buey song me again liao, cause during her class, i keep walking to sis n kor place...
ya, speaking of sis, i'm damn sorry girl...
about thing happened during recess time...
psps...
accidentaly...
psps...
k, continue to selvan class...
i found out my darling jing wen is doing sth i did...
den i wanna to snatch away frm her the "tool"
too bad, both our hand kena hurt in the end...
bt... i still win^^
anw, jing wen, pls, try k?
tat stead of urs, i'm soo going to confront to him...(provided, if u dun mind)
haizz...
think tats all?
hmm...
oh ya, my dear sister...
is damn tired n sleepy, juz like me...
tats why we're r sis rite?
lols
k, gtg, cause new generation is coming around...
zzz~
bye bye^^
Jing Wen: U can de, JY^^(if nt enough oil, i can add somemore^^)
Sis: Awake alr? lols(psps^^)
my! 5 yrs old sis is playing nezha dvd...(dun noe she played this dvd for how many times liao...lol)
haizz...
anw, still, bye^^
take care^^

LOL

2009-08-02T11:17:00.002+08:00

Going to aunt house soon...
lol, today i seems to woke up quite early eh?
good good^^
haizz...
ytd found out tat my Lit book is lost too...
as usual, i left it under my table...
bt now, it's lost liao...
haizz...
sad la...
everytime this one lost, tat one lost....
sad la...
haizz...
hope all of these will end soon, plea?
lol, ytd slept at about 2, den i woke up at 10+?
lol, good^^
wahahaha^^
k, chiong hwT-T
haizz...
bt seems very strange leh...
while everyone is in a party mood, den i'm like doing hw over there?
haizz...
dun noe if i can concentrate ltr on liao...
haizz....
sad la....
hope tat i can concentrate bahx...
cause CA2 is coming around liao...
den...
it consist of the total marks for streaming year...
so, haizz...
Jia You lo...
>.<
sad la...
room is full of shirts...
lols
messy till like hell...
lol
now chatting wif sis^^
den mum is like shouting n calling for me liao...
lols
ps, gtg, bye bye^^

Thanx Kel^^

2009-08-02T01:17:00.000+08:00

Kel, maybe u might nt view my blog...
bt still thanx^^
to say the truth, i first time say so much things to u...
remember the first time when we chat wif each other?
lols
still in my mind, tat time i'm in sch library...
lols
we dun even noe each other lo
lols
anw, really thanx^^
u cheered me up^^
ps for disturbing u juz now...
sweet dreams worx^^
good nite, n i gt to slp soon le^^
good nite everybody....

remember:
i will be back^^

lol, seems creepy eh?
k, back to post cause wanna thanx kel^^
ps, dun noe if u mind i like tat call u anot...
anw ty^^

dear ladies n gentlemen who bother to view my blog...
goodnite^^
slp tight worx^^

There's nth left...

2009-08-01T20:09:00.000+08:00

My life, my world...
is all crashed...
nth is left...
wat i see now...
is dun noe wat...
my heart sank...
haizz...
tmr going to aunt house, at yishun?
yishun wat, i nt sure...
cause her son n daughter b'day, so go lo...
actually, the actual day is nt ytd de, think is near national day?(09/08)
dun noe why celebrate so early, n choose sunday, dun choose saturday...
zzz...
den also hav to fix their com...
cause tat time bro go install Avira antivirus on their com, den i think now they say cant go internet?
how will installing antivirus block internet sia?
lols
so bro suspect tat their com kena virus...
or malware?
or trojan horse?
dun noe la, tmr den will noe^^
hope i can solve the problem
as i'm nt pro in this...
haizz...
quite emo now leh...
ytd beat my temperature record...
38.1^^
lol, now den noe when i broke record will be so happy de sia...
lol
ytd reached home at bout 8
den eat, shower...
dad came home...
drink soup...
den feeling damn tired...
so slp at 10++
so long didnt slp so early liao...
bt today woke up at 11.44...
lols
anw, today is sharul b'day^^
though he dun noe my url, bt still happy b'day to him^^
ytd forgot to wish him...
lol
cause i'm a sotong^^
wahahas...
lol
i'm crazy now...
juz now tried installing audi...
bt dun noe gt wat error...
den still cancel install will be better la...
so cancelled leT-T
haizz...
if can, someone remind me to bring my hw to aunt house worx...
hav to chiong liao....
to day didnt even touched them...
lols
den monday gt maths test on 6E...
damn hell lo...
dun even understand, den my graph look so unbalance...
lols
there's new generation of mosquito in my room...
lols
bt its nt kena dengue de(i think)
cause if it's kena dengue...
den i also kena liao...
lols
oh my, why this post is like...
so long?
too long didnt post le la...
lols
fine, nt funny...
i knew tat's nt funny bout kena dengue...
anw, ytd, really thx to all^^
suddenly gt one bhb feeling...
kinda of like the feeling of being a princess...
cause gt knights...
lol
bhb rite?
dun mind hor....
lols
k, gtg for shower liao...
today is saturday^^
Boys Over Flower^^
yoohoo^^
glad aunt didnt hold her childrens b'day party today...
cause if tats so...
i'm going to miss the ep le^^
wahahas
yipee~
^^ k, gtg, if nt....
will be late liao...
lols
k, bye^^

Everything is a new start...

2009-08-01T17:51:00.000+08:00

It's a new start^^
n...
btw, this is really me la...
cause bro say wanna me to delete all the post...
so no choice...
i deleted in order to blog again lo, bt...
i didnt delete the things in chatbox...
n i hope sis n kai li dun mind bout it...
cause u both understand me...
frm wat my opinion is tat, everyone do understand me la...
juz some...
nt going to name out...
i do trust u all....
really do trust...
anw, gtg le
haizz...
dun noe if can past the test anot...
lol
k la, Jy for me k?
bye^^
hope tat i can post again^^